I remember turning onto Elliott Avenue
and Grandpa's car pulling up beside me.
"Get in," he said, and I got in,
beside my mother and little sister.
From the front seat, my Grandma
turned and told me
"Your father has died."
"Dad's dead?" I asked, my voice rising.
"Think of your mother! Think of your mother!"
she admonished, and I fell silent.
Just that quickly
had life
completely
changed.
I remember Grandma
having a dizzy spell
that afternoon, from stress,
and my mom worrying
she was going to lose
she was going to lose
her mother, too.
I remember that night,
at the supper table,
my mom looking at
her two young daughters,
beginning, helplessly, to cry,
and having to leave the table.
She went back home, alone,
that night. Later, she told me,
she felt Dad's presence there,
took his old, battered hat,
held it to her chest,
and walked up and
down the creek, crying,
all the evening.
He had been her love
since she was just sixteen.
To the end of her life
she repeated, like a mantra,
"He was the only man I ever loved."
I remember, after the funeral,
standing beside her
in the church doorway,
at the top of the stairs,
looking out at a normal, sunny
summer afternoon,
and her looking at me and saying,
"We have a long row to hoe, now."
And we did.
At Poets United's Verse First today, Kim set us the prompt: I Remember. We were to start writing and put down whatever came and then revise it. Mine came exactly as it happened, and I couldn't think of any way to revise it.........I love Kim's prompts.
Beautifully and gently told. a daughter caring for her mother, impressionism at its finest. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteThis is so poignant!
ReplyDeleteYes, a long road to hoe (together), but I like the touch of hope in that last stanza.
ReplyDeleteWe never forget moments like these, the moments that change our lives forever, and can't be revised.
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Very well written and it captures the loss of your heart. Takes me back to my loss and feelings. Well done.
ReplyDeleteyou write with such grace and dignity ~ something that is so sad, big hugs to the daughter who fell silent xx
ReplyDeletePowerful remembering, Sherry. A loss of a parent always leaves a hole...that is never filled again in the same way. Very moving post.
ReplyDeleteOh Sherry. You have no clue what this made me feel. We all face such circumstances. I am searching for words but cant find it. Your father will be damn proud of you and your mom.
ReplyDeleteYes you did and life goes on, moves on in memories that shape our courage. Your mother was very brave
ReplyDeleteYour Mother must have been a wonderful, strong role model as you grew up.
ReplyDeletewow
ReplyDeleteIm so sorry for the pain that unexpected event caused
what a family / strong and loving
This is so heart wrenching, Sherry. I know the feeling, when I went to visit my very sick dad at the hospital, they told me he had passed and I felt like the world had just stopped. You beautifully express this kind of grief.
ReplyDeleteLush and absolutely gorgeous - in language and emotion - Bravo:)
ReplyDeleteWe all remember out sad and hard feelings.... Wish we could somehow remember our Lovely pleasant feeling...... I couldnt..... Whn asked
ReplyDeleteI remember I could only remember my lost love.... Ur poem Made me cry..... As i know the pain of lossing at a very young age is so hard.........
These memories serve us well when kept in taat 'hope' chest.
ReplyDeleteLovely!
...kept in that
ReplyDeleteThis is beautifully written Sherry. How sad that must have been.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully weaved story, Sherry. You've been your Mom's strength...kudos.Such support and compassion change life of elderly drastically...
ReplyDeleteThe concluding part is so so beautiful...
You never forget events like that. Thank goodness your family survived it. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
ReplyDeleteA sad memory but beautifully portrayed. I felt the sadness.
ReplyDeleteSherry, you took a terribly sad moment from your life and laid it out like a quilt... so touching. The little things, like her comments, the way your grandma responded to you... these are things that shape a person's life. You came through it all well, I must say, for all that hardship. The final lines say it all... Amy
ReplyDeleteBeautifully and gently written. Such sadness but a great deal of dignity.
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