A Poem for Your Pocket

 

When I'm looking for light,

I read poems.

When I'm fleeing heartache,

I write them.

Maybe I look out my window

and see some small puff-ball clouds

slowly moving across my morning sky,

or two eagles, circling,

wind-surfing the thermals.

This is your poem.

I want it to speak to

that part of your heart

that has walked many miles

to reach it.

Perhaps you don't read poetry,

thinking it a country of no resonance

for you. Perhaps, if you give it a try,

it will surprise you, connect

with a feeling, a shared experience.

Maybe you will do a mental double-take,

realizing that words can dance,

sometimes - albeit infrequently -

so nimbly across the page,

like young Jack leaping the candlestick

all those many years ago.

This is your poem.

If it bores you, no worries.

This poem's feelings cannot be hurt.

Like the tired heart

that composed it, it has seen enough pain

to not need to go down those roads again.

Keep this poem

in your heart's pocket,

and, one day when I am gone,

come back and find

me in it

once again.

for my prompt at What's Going On - an open link to celebrate April Poetry Month.

Blessings

 

Gathering of Allies
photo by Marcie Callewaert Photography
I'm in the middle, front row, raised fist,
cane, blue plaid shirt

Sitting in a rocking chair in the sun

Giving treats to passing dogs; their smiles and bright, happy, glowing eyes warming my heart

 Cherry blossom scent on the breeze,  small hummers drinking deeply, so thirsty after the long winter of anticipation

Thinking of yesterday's rally of Tla-o-qui-aht and allies, showing up for Mother Earth, celebrating how Wah-nah-juss was saved from clearcutting 40 years ago, when the First People Just Said No

Remembering passionate early mornings on the blockades, how alive we felt back then, making change, standing on the road for the trees

Turning off the bad news; turning on morning, and birdsong; recalling waking in the night to see a full round Grandmother Moon, golden and smiling in the sky, and looking right at me

Watching a juvenile eagle making random circles overhead, breathing in all that is peaceful and hopeful, beautiful and sun-kissed, all around; nothing left to wish for but more days just like this, sitting in a rocking chair in the sun

Except a world healthy enough to sustain the young eagle, and all of earth's young ones, into the future

A list of blessings for Shay's Word List

Poet In Search of a Poem

When life has worn you into

an unthinking shell

without words

and you sit, blinking into space,

in a place of No Thought,

tap the lifeline

of poetry

that lifts your heart

out of its everyday concerns,

into the realm

of midnight moons

and hungry ghosts.

Look up into the raven sky

and chart the silver moon goddess

as she trails mystery

like a gossamer cloak

across the heavens.

Poetry

remembers that life

is more than bread and worry,

that it is beauty and aliveness

and gilt-edged miracle.

It is the suspension of disbelief

and the fastening of one's heart
on Possibility
and Promise.

It is the lifting of one's eyes

above the "raveled sleeve of care"

to remember music,

the dance of language,

love,

and the silver shining sea,

forever ebbing and flowing

upon a shore lined

with old growth,

and then fastening
one's heart

and vision

and belief

firmly

upon that.

For Susan's prompt at What's Going On - What IS it about poetry?  The quote is from Macbeth.

No Solace at Lost Shoe Lake

 

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I looked for solace at Lost Shoe Lake,
vividly picturing that long-ago settler,
desperately slogging the muddy slough -
bitter as his shoe was suctioned
off his foot, and gone,
a catastrophe unlikely
but, alas for him,
too true.

I imagine his chagrin, thoughts
of the rocky miles ahead 
circling his brain like blackflies,
his journey
caught between disbelief
and dread.

No solace for him
for a hundred miles
at least.

No solace for me
as I walked the lonely shore,
without my beloved
grinning
big black beast.

for Shay's Word List

Bird

 

Source: Getty Images

I imagined a gathering of magpies

in the tops of the alder grove,
as I sat in the sun,

breathing in the scent
of white cherry blossoms.

There was an outbreak of loud chattering, 

all bird voices speaking at once.
What manner of bird was this?

What new song were they

trying to sing? What alarm
sent their chatter into
such brief furore?

I imagined a murmuration,

a stupefaction, of small noisy birds.

As their voices crescendoed,

then subsided and grew still, I pondered
the brief raucous uproar. Perhaps

the loudest among them had won

the fattest worm. Perhaps an elder bird,

dignified in tophat and cane,
had fallen asleep

and toppled off his perch.

Hopefully, his bird-folk had caught 

and steadied him firmly
on the branch
just in time.

While there are magpies elsewhere in BC, they are not in evidence in Clayoquot Sound. But as this was all imaginary, as I rocked in the sun, I had a bit of fun contemplating what might have caused all the ruckus. I identified strongly with the senior bird, needless to say. Smiles.

Seeing Double

 

Kwiisahi?is
Brave Little Hunter
Photo by Zeballos Inn

How to hold this April morning,
on the West Coast of Canada
in my one human
overloaded brain?

The cherry trees in bloom,
rhododendrons opening their pink buds,
blue sky, the eternal waves,
beauty as far as I can see

while, elsewhere on the planet,
bombs fall, children hide among
the rubble. I fill my porridge bowl
while innocents starve

and the disconnect,
among those who govern
with power instead of humanity,
between their agendas and
the horrors of reality,

creates a two-level existence:
the one I am living
and the one I am all too aware of
across the globe.

Meanwhile,
one small orphaned whale
circles the lagoon in which
she is trapped
while humans take too long
to set her free.

Everywhere, the innocent are suffering,
our hearts too full of grief
to bear the pain.

for Sumana's prompt: April. 

It is a schizophrenic existence these days. April out my window is beautiful and blooming. On this side of the window is the daily news, horror upon horror, no enlightenment, no relief anywhere. And the small whale is still alive, but tenuously so, while rescuers contemplate their response. They are doing their best, but time is of the essence, as they know. The most hopeful plan is helicoptering her out into open ocean, and containing her in a net until her pod - hopefully - swims by, then releasing her. I would prefer them lifting her close by her pod and releasing her, but this has been ruled out. It will be traumatic for her, there is little doubt.

It has now been seventeen days since her mother died. She is diving for longer periods and still calls for her mother every fifteen minutes. We don't know if she is eating.

I am trying, with my entire will, to keep her alive until  rescuers can get her out of the lagoon and set her free. Surely we can get ONE thing right in a world that has apparently lost its collective mind. One small whale, alive, is not too much to ask.

Traveling Through Time

 

An armchair traveler she is now,
traveling
traveling
all the way back

to those soft sweet summers
at the very beginning
of time.

These days

all her running is done in reverse,

spooling backwards through 

the Land of Memory

to that wartime cottage,
seventy-three years gone,

flowerboxes at the windows,

wildflowers and weeping willow,
pinks, sweet peas
and hollyhocks
out back.
And roses twined over the arched trellis
out front, where she'd swing
on the gate, late afternoons,
waiting for her parents
to come.

One did not need valerian then;

the silence and peace indoors,
and the loud, ticking clock,

put that small child to sleep

through long hot midday hours.

She remembers well
how safe she felt,

and cherished, the comfort of

her grandma's big, womanly body

next to her in the bottom bunk

as she drifted off
to dreamland
in the one place on earth
where she was never afraid.

for Shay's Word List: Spill Simmer Falter Wither

Surrender

                                      

by Lucy Campbell

The medicine of surrender is

giving up the idea of what might have been

and accepting what was, what is,

while leaving the door of the heart open,

with acceptance, for what might yet be.

It means recognizing,

possibly a little too late,

that while we thought

we were driving the boat,

instead, it was taking us on

a most unexpected journey,

one of surprise and amazement

at where we landed up,

yet knowing,

in the end, it is exactly where

we are meant to be.

The medicine of surrender

means weeding out what does not

serve our souls

and following our heart's true instinct,

which will inevitably return us

to our authentic selves,

and take us home.

Inspired by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer's The Medicine of Surrender.

To Be Dazzled

Deer at my sister's farm,
nibbling birdseed under the feeder

To be dazzled, said the old woman,

just look up at the sky, and watch it change,

hour by hour. Or gaze at the sea, dark blue-green

with white-foam caps 

on every wave.

To be dazzled, said the crow,

look in the dump for a toss-up of silvery,

shiny objects, too much wealth

for one small beak. Then choose,

and go home feeling rich and happy.

To be dazzled, said the fawn,

look into my mother's soft doe eyes,

so tender, as she bends her head low

to nibble new spring grass, and I bend mine up

to drink her warm, rich milk.

I happened on the prompt  from NaPoWriMo  at  Kim Russell's blog : how a trio of things would observe the same emotion. It was a fun exercise and I loved the prompt poem, The Blessing of the Old Woman, the Tulip and the Dog, by Alicia Ostriker, as well as Kim's wonderful response.

These Days

 

Kwiisahi?is
Brave Little Hunter
Photo by Zeballos Inn

These days,
Traveler's heart is
split in two with grief,
half of it swimming
around and around a lagoon,
where a small orphaned orca calf
is trapped,
grieving her mother.

The other half,
that believes in life and loves this planet,
is losing hope as, in almost every instance,
human beings around the world
seem to have lost our way.

Traveler's wish
is that we learn from the animals
how to live:
simply,
truly,
respectfully
and gently
on Mother Earth.

And that the
Brave Little Hunter
will soon swim free
with her pod.

Looking for a Miracle

Photo shared by Bay Cetology

I'm looking for a miracle.

I don't think we'll get a big one, any time soon: that the world will put down its guns and bombs, humanity will be woke, and leaders rendered sane, coming together to slow the climate crisis.

I'll settle for a smaller one: that an orphaned baby orca will be reunited with her pod in time to save her life; that lost dogs will be returned home; and abused animals will be rescued and, finally, learn what being loved is.

The Big Picture is daunting, with a planet in freefall. Leaders grapple over toxic power, and turn a blind eye to corporate destruction of the natural world, and the suffering of human and non-human beings in the name of the great god Money.

I'm grateful for the Smaller View: the blue sky I have been in love with all my life: a Sky-Show every minute! The eternal waves rolling in, as they always have and always will, on the shore and forever in  my heart.

My joy is the beauty all around: sunflowers and sea stars, poems, books, candles, and soft fuzzy blankets; newborn foals and mother ducks, and the warm, smiling eyes of well-loved dogs.

Under the great bowl of sky, already so many miracles: small as a tiny cell inside our amazing bodies; vast as the universe with its many galaxies: sun, moon, planets, stars in their mystical orbits.

Under this same sky may there come, one day, a miracle: a thousand years of peace, when the bombs cease and people turn to helping and feeding each other; bending together to pick up the rubble, using the fallen bricks to lay the foundation for a better tomorrow.

While we wait, please, Universe and Whoever is Listening, help one small helpless whale reunite with her grandma. That will be miracle enough for me.

***

On March 23rd, Spong, a mother orca, pregnant at the time, was beached in a small lagoon near Zeballos, when the tide went out suddenly and left her stranded. Her two year old calf was with her, calling to her mom as she thrashed and tried, with the assistance of First Nations and other villagers, to right herself. Sadly, she was on her side when the tide rushed in, and she drowned, despite everyone's best efforts. All this time, the orphaned whale the natives named kʷiisaḥiʔis (Brave Little Hunter) has been circling the lagoon where her mother last was.

 

Researchers and First Nations have been trying to encourage her out of the lagoon but the difficulty is the narrow opening only has enough depth half an hour a day for this to happen and the baby can't manage it. They talk of lifting her out in a sling by helicopter, and reuniting her with her pod, where she has a grandmother. But they seem to be waiting till that is the only option, given the trauma. My maternal instincts say they are waiting too long. Once she is in distress everything will be harder for her. She tried to eat a bird last Saturday so she is hungry and is too small to hunt a seal which is her normal diet.

One small whale is haunting my thoughts and will until she is safe. It will be a double tragedy if she does not survive. Orcas are an endangered species, only 73 of them left here on the coast. On April 2, her pod was located. Time is of the essence. I hold my breath until the brave little hunter is with her grandma.

for Mary's prompt at What's Going On: Miracles

Smoke

 

She took down the book from the shelf;

it was bookmarked with a crushed flower.

She remembered the heartbreak of forbidden love,

that lasted for such a brief hour.

He was a Russian composer;

and she was just sweet seventeen.

Her inner wildness, so far lying dormant,

was suddenly plain to be seen.

Her father, outraged and pompous,

issued steam from his ears as he spoke.

"State your intentions!" he ordered,

and the Russian disappeared in the smoke.

for Shay's Word List.

I Always Knew

 

I always knew I loved the sky.
I walked through seven decades,
head tilted back and grinning
at the great blue bowl above.

I didn't always know
I loved the sea, but,
once I did and moved there,
my soul found itself
at home.

I have always loved the forest,
especially old growth:
fat, friendly grandmother trunks
breathing peace.
The wild ones and I walk
softly there,
with gentle hearts.
I have always loved
the trees.

I have always longed for
the wild places,
a cabin in the wilderness
with no other manmade structure
within sight.
That cabin lives within my heart.
I walk the trails and along the shore
and am well content.

I have always loved
the wild ones:
intelligent eyes, free hearts,
trying to survive
this world of humans
who have forgotten
to be kind.

Springtime, baby animals,
blossoms popping
through the earth,
days lengthening into evening.
I have always
loved the spring.

A response to Marjorie Saiser's "I Didn't Know I Loved". I have always known.

Octopus

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Meet Kali,
a captive baby octopus,
who spent her whole short life in a barrel
because the public aquarium
had no tank for her.

As she grew,
each time her captors took
the lid off the barrel,
she thrust herself
upwards,
tentacles reaching up and out,
increasingly desperate
to be free of the barrel,
she, whose rightful home
was the deep blue sea.

Finally, staff adapted
a glass enclosure for her,
as best they could,
and watched her day of joy
as she explored
its every inch.

But they had failed to
tightly seal around a pipe
and octopuses are masters
at escape.

Next morning, they found her
dead on the floor,
a high price to pay
for one short day
of joy.

I just read Sy Montgomery's Soul of an Octopus, an Exploration into the Wonder of Consciousness. The author befriended ocopuses at a research aquarium, and also dove to see them in their natural habitat in the ocean. But the story of one baby octopus was distressing.

The book is a fascinating study of these intelligent creatures, but I grew more desperate as I read for her captors to get her out of that barrel. Animals suffer in captivity; it is their nature and birthright to be free, and whatever humans gain from learning about them in captivity isn't worth what it costs the animals. We should study them respectfully in the wild. Or leave them alone.

Traveler in Spring

 

After the dark winter,
Traveler's heart leaps
at tiny snowdrops and early daffodils
popping through the earth.

Her heart expands
like the buds on the ancient cherry trees,
slowly beginning to open.

Traveler smiles at daylight
arriving early in the eastern sky,
and days lengthening
into evening,
a little more each day.

The cycle is familiar, and dear -
and yet still feels like a miracle
every year.

This is Traveler's 76th spring,
the light creeping into her heart,
which feels as buoyant 
as the spring morning,
and shining out through her eyes
at such a beautiful world!

For my prompt at What's Going On - the Coming of the Light. Here in the western hemisphere, especially along the coast, winters are mild and spring comes early. The ocean where I live is a whale highway this time of year, as the gentle giants swim past on their way from Baja to the feeding grounds in the Arctic. Some of them stay here through the summer. The herring spawn occurred last week, turning the edge of the sea a beautiful turquoise. Wonders abound!

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An Un-Fairy Tale

 

Saturday dawned uneasy,
as a mother orca,
hunting in a small bay,
got beached when the tide
ran out.

First Nations and villagers
rushed to help her,
pouring water on her,
hoping she would swim out
when the tide returned.

Her small calf swam
nearby, calling and calling,
her tail thrashing in response.
She fought hard.
Sadly, she died.

A First Nations man sang
to her spirit, in ceremony,
to thank and bless her,
for the wild ones are all relatives
to the People of the Land.

On Sunday an orca-shaped cloud
appeared in the sky,
a message from the spirit world,
to say she was transformed.

Her calf is still in the bay,
her haunting cries
being broadcast out to sea
in hopes her pod
will return for her.

Her cries for her lost mom
are breaking our hearts.
A reunion with her pod is
the best ending
to this story.
Any other outcome
would make this tale
too sad and sorry.

Photo by Amanda Provencal of Port Alberni

Let's combine our wills and manifest this baby out into deeper waters where her pod can find her. Because of the tides, and the narrow passage she has to navigate, there is only a 30 minute window when she could, if she knew how, swim through to open ocean where her pod can be found..........but she will not be able to manage this herself. People are watching and hoping but action needs to be taken. They are considering lifting her out on a sling with a helicopter which will be traumatic but likely the only way to save her. As she was orphaned on the 23rd and it is now the 30th, I think they should stop watching and take action. If she doesnt make it, I am not going to be okay about it.

Song for Solstice

Granddog Chloe, now in the spirit world,
on the tombolo at Chesterman Beach

With all of the things you have learned

from your long journeying,

with all of your heartache

that taught you to love and to cry,

and with all of your dreaming

that helped you to live,

with that same loving heart and merry laugh

that has brought you to the ocean's shore,

come out at dusk and celebrate

the full cold moon

at the place where the tide

kisses the tombolo,

then runs away, laughing.

Yesterday morning's dawn

approached as pink and fresh

as a young maiden

singing the new day in.

Tonight shows itself

as a wise old woman with knowing smile,

tapping her cane and hobbling.

But she still remembers her dancing feet,

she remembers,

and, in her heart, she is still dancing

across the beloved landscape

with joy.

You grew your soul

all green with wilderness

and wild with wolf-breath,

in a forest of great and ancient tree beings

breathing peace.

You owe them your every breath,

each one their gift to us.

The journey has been astonishing, magical;

it has brought you here,

to the edge of the sea.

And now you are looking at

those far, snow-capped mountains.

The echo of the heron's call

and wild wolfsong at midnight

will keep you here a while.

The tree trunks you hug

breathe their smiles at you; they whisper,

"we waited for you, friend,

for all these many years."

The sea sings your soul-song,

the only song you ever knew.

It sang you out of the desert

and over the mountain pass

to the wild shores of Clayoquot Sound.

It has carried you so far,

and it is singing, still.

Come out at dusk to meet me
in the lengthening light,

 in the place where

the tide kisses the tombolo,

then runs away, laughing.

Let earth and sky

inform your grateful heart

that, finally and forever,

you are Home.

An older poem, in celebration of the Spring Equinox on March 19th.  The tombolo is a strip of sand connecting the shore with Frank Island, seen in the background. When the tide is high, this area is covered as waves from either side meet each other.

Three Lives

 

The tabby stalks
as stealthily as a leopard,
panting,
through the tall, winter-yellow grass,
her eyes glowing,
alert for the smallest movement.
She is dreaming of mice
and ready to pounce.

There is an old woman
sitting in thin late-winter sunlight,
watching the cat, thinking of 
a snow leopard in the Himalayas,
as elusive
as her long-vanished dreams.

There is a blue heron,
standing one-legged,
looking out at the western sea,
like its cousin, the flamingo,
in her more brilliant plumage,
the width of a continent 
and a warmer shore away.

Three lives in late winter,
anchored by one foot
on the ground,
with minds all
far-travelling.

Smiles. Brain is tired today, some nonsense for  Shay's Word List.

Girl Power

If I were to write a heroine in action,
who would it be?

Malala,
at gunpoint,
a girl with a book, saying bravely
"Here I am",
and staying who she was,
no matter what.

Or it would be Greta,
age fifteen,
a small girl on strike for climate,
who refused to stop,
igniting a movement
across the globe,
waking the adults up
from our long sleep.

[Jane and Flint,
the first chimp born at Gombe 
after her arrival]

Or, before them,
there was Jane,
whose love of animals
and dreams of Africa
took her to the chimps of Gombe,
so she could teach us that animals
have all the feelings and emotions
humans do - love and grief,
fear and pain, joy and sorrow -
and that they need us
to help them live.

for Susan's prompt at What's Going On:  Characters In Action, letting action reveal character. Three of my heroines, whose lives have made a difference. 

Things We Carry On Our Journey

 

By now, our pack is heavy, with all we are carrying. We bend under the weight, but we cannot let any of it go, and remain a person with a human heart.

We carry earth-grief, for how we have treated the earth, and for how, in her distress, the earth is letting us know we need to change.

We carry broken hearts, for how inhumanely man lives with man: for wars, for bombs falling, for terrified people being displaced, injured, starved and killed.

We carry distress and compassion for the many non-human beings who are silently suffering, dying and growing extinct on our watch.

We carry outrage, our sense of justice unable to comprehend the outrageous behaviour of deranged "leaders", who would annihilate the world to prove they are the strongest. And those who enable and fanatically support them, against all reason.

We carry memories of earlier years when, in our innocence, the world felt like a safe place. We mourn for that lost time,  and that gentler, kinder earth.

We carry small joys - spring blossoms, the loving eyes of dogs, a cup of coffee imbibed sitting in the sun - for the two eagles drifting on the wind curents, circling overhead in early afternoon - for those deep delights and everyday gifts and comforts that remind us that, in the midst of global horrors, life is good, right here, right now, and we must never take it for granted, because, in a single instant, everything can change.

We carry gratitude - for the journey, for the many gifts, both given and received, for the spirit guides who helped us along the way; gratitude, for the beauty and generosity of the natural world, for those trying to heal and save it, for the gift of life - this day, sun-blessed and peaceful, this moment, my heart saying  a silent "Thank You" to Whoever is listening.

Wayward Hope

 

Cloud creatures swim across the sky

and creep across the topmost mountain peaks,

drowsy in the warming world.

It is peaceful up there.

Down below, there is a howling,

a frenzy of food-seeking, war-battered madness.
The animal world is vanishing;
the planet is heating up.
Does anybody care?

Corporations will not reduce their profits
or emissions;
world leaders are too busy waging war.

When will we hold a memorial for war

and promise there will never be another?
When will we collectively
face the fact
that we are in deep shit?

Human evolution is unfinished.

We are badly in need of a visionary.

My wayward hopes are withering

on the vine.

for Shay's Word List

Through a Child's Eyes

 

photo credit: esfera

How does a child process
bombs falling,
their family fleeing
through the rubble and gunfire,
no safe place,
no food,
their parents desperate
- or dying -
living outdoors in all weather,
ill, injured, starving,
no hope of help or rescue

while the whole world watches?

How does any human heart
process suffering
this deep?

for Sumana's prompt at What's Going On? : The Children

CNN reports  that 1.4 million people, twice the population of New York, are crammed into Rafah, (less than 25 square miles), where they fled for safety, but are now under fire. Children and women make up 70% (25,000) of the 30,000 killed since the October 7 attack on Israel by Hamas. Civilians do not want this war. Children are starving and suffering intestinal diseases due to lack of sanitation and access to clean water. They are living without shelter, medical care or safety.  Contributing reasons and political responses aside, the sheer inhumanity of what is happening to ordinary civilians there - especially the children - weighs heavily on my heart. No one wins in war. 

Trees

I hear them calling me, the ancient trees,
and so I go, stepping into
a world of green,

feeling my heart slow,
knowing I am seen.

Here is beauty, here is peace.

Here is the state of simply Being

with the Standing People,
the land holders, 

who keep us all alive.

The wind whispers soft songs

in my ear. I hear the rustling

of small creatures in the bush.

Above, an eagle circles,

his flight like song -

a being who already knows

that he belongs.

Listen, the poet says.

Listen with your heart.

I hear the voiceless ones,

I hear the earth,

singing her song of growth

and of re-birth.

Then all thought falls away.

The peacefulness is all.

We breathe together.

May these trees
never fall.

What to Hold Onto

 

Lunabella, surveying her future

What do I hold onto,
when nothing is certain any more,
when the news is full of war, suffering,
displaced civilians, starving children, 
wildfires, floods, extreme weather events,
whole towns bombed into rubble,
or falling into the sea.

What do I hold onto,
when icebergs are melting,
coastal towns are flooding,
rainforests are not rainforests any more,
in drought half the year,
and the wild ones are endangered
and disappearing.

What do I hold onto
when we, ourselves, are endangered,
the climate crisis accelerating,
while world leaders are too focused on war
to pay attention.

What do I hold onto
when half a country prefers deranged leadership
to stability and experience, decency and moral values.
When democracy itself may be lost
and human rights we fought whole lifetimes for
are being stripped away.

I once lived serenely, expecting life to continue
much the same way, day after pleasant day, and,
for a time, it did. The change came with a shock
that turned my hopefulness into alarm, then
into disbelief that people with intelligence
could be making such an enormous investment
in a fool's folly.

What I hold onto, with all my heart:
that others feel as I do, who long for
a better world of social and environmental justice;
that Mother Nature is always there, with her
forest trails and seashore, her small creatures and
green growing things every spring; with her
struggle to survive in spite of all we do to her.
I believe in the blue sky, in the earth, in trees,
in the Bigger Story, beyond this horrible chapter
we are living - that one day, this, too, will pass,
at whatever cost to we who are living now,
and those who follow. That one day, humanity
will remember to be kind, respect our connection
to each other and to All That Is. That we will stop
the warring and the division, once we experience 
its full horrors (as we seem to be doing now),
and usher in a thousand years of peace
so humanity and the earth can heal.

14 Reasons to Remain Silent

 

Journey and Lunabella
who are the reason one CANNOT remain silent,
because their future matters so much.

Because in all of the rhetoric that batters us daily,
no one is listening or trying to come to some agreement.

Because humanity has lost its way and may not find 
its way back until it is too late.

Because I have great-grandchildren who will live
that reality, and I won't be here to help them.

Because the horror of war and the toll in human
suffering is too overwhelming to find words for.

Because my heart, that once dreamed
the transformation of consciousness would
happen in time, has retreated to a state of
resignation and lost much of its ability to hope.

Because the only way I can find solace and to cope
with all that is so wrong is to walk in silence in
the forest, or in contemplation along the shore.

Because we poets bathe in words, yet often
live our outer lives in silent observation.

Because the climate crisis is accelerating
and everyone is so distracted by war
we don't realize there is a bigger war going on,
between nature and corporate greed, that
we won't survive unless we lower emissions
DRASTICALLY and NOW.

Because like the rest of humanity, we wait
for world leaders to inspire and lead us
and no one is shining that brightly.

Because we are in need of heroes and
the news is full of un-heroic speech
by those invested in attacking our rights
and freedoms.

Because my heart is breaking for this
so-divided world and nothing can change
unless we all come together.

Because fascism is rising across the globe,
even in places we never dreamed it would,
including the home of the brave and
the land of the free. (Just watch those
rights and freedoms disappearing.)

Because we can't change or reason with
fanatical and fundamentalist thinking, and
therein lies the problem.

Because humans tend to learn
the hard way.

A gloomy point of view but, alas, it's where we're at.

Pancake Man

 

Once you see him,
you can't un-see him

The word makes me think of

a certain orange man, a

(self)important anti-hero,

who has eaten too many pancakes

and appears to wear pancake

make-up on his mug.

From one to ten, in my books

he's a zero.

No idea why he sprang to mind.

Especially when I could have

written about a dog instead,

and the poem would have been kind.

Brains abandoned, morality quite gone,

rabid beliefs whose repercussions

will be felt for years,

he makes even pacifists think

of revolvers and switchblades

(and then shed guilty
pacifistic tears.)

I'd send him to France

if I thought there was a chance

that croissants would keep him there,

but France would look askance

at his unruly hair and send him back.

Life is increasingly unfair.

How to end this poem I do not know.
We do the best we can,
so on we go.

Some nonsense for Shay's Word List.  Can you believe you can google "trump pancake", and something pops up?

Eight Lessons in Training a Goshawk

 

photo credit: Chris Reilly

I
First, I had to become invisible,
so she could learn to accept me.
We sat the difficult, patient,
excruciating hours together,
her hooded, at times, for calmness,
my eyes averted,
until she could be with me unmasked,
without fear.

II
Next, I had to make her hunger,
so when I offered food
on my extended fist
she would come to me.
This was a dance that took some time
to choreograph.

III
I did not know,
until she laughed,
that goshawks were capable
of play.

IV
We walked the hill to the field in dread,
her on my arm,
she because she was terrified,
I because I feared
she'd fly away.

V
The hardest thing to learn
was trusting
she'd return.

VI
It took many fails a day
for a week,
her falling, hobbled,
to the ground,
angry and glaring,
and then we got it right -
she flew right to me.

VII
In the brambles,
her first time loose,
caught by the bracken,
her yellow eyes
looked to me
for rescue. Trust.

VIII
I thought I was training her
to be a goshawk,
but she was teaching me
to unite my wild and human parts,
until my spirit rose
from its bed of grief
and flew.


for Mary's prompt at What's Going On: 15 Reasons

I loved Wallace Stevens' Thirteen Ways of Looking at a Blackbird so much that I tried to echo his format, though likely I am no where near his style. The topic was inspired by having read a most wonderful book, H is for Hawk, by Helen Macdonald, about her training a goshawk, while grieving her father's death.

This Poem is a Tired Grandmother

 

This poem is a grandmother

whose soul has grown weary.

This poem has seen too many

children dying.

This poem is thirsty

for a song of hope.

This poem is a heart that once held

hope as wide and blue as the sky

and as deep as the sea.

This poem once believed

we were better than we currently are.

This poem once dreamed

we would figure out how to live

on this beautiful planet,

with each other and all the other creatures,

in time.

This poem is losing hope.

This poem is a grandmother

whose soul has grown weary.

This poem is a grandmother

who turns on the news

to find children dying, everywhere:

the children of Gaza, and Ukraine,

African children, starving children,

children shot in classrooms,

while adults cling to their guns

as an inalienable right.

(It is alien, all right.)

This grandma remembers a time

of childhood innocence and safety.

Where has it gone, and why?

This poem has seen too many

children dying.

This grandmother misses the time

when she could look up at the sky

and feel much was right with the world.

This grandmother misses leaders

who had the best interests of the country

at heart,

who had not sold their souls

to money and corporations,
who put serving the people
before political ambition
and partisanship,

men with clear eyes, and vision,

and an attitude of service,

who could speak in full sentences

and were not clearly deranged.

The dead-eyed and soulless are leading us

over the edge of the cliff, clutching money

to their hollow chests as they fall.

Children lecture us at the UN,

showing more wisdom and maturity

than their elders.

This grandmother needs inspiration,

needs to hear the voices

of women and grandmothers, rising.

She needs to see patriarchy fall.

She needs the transformation of consciousness

to happen soon,

while there is still an earth to save,

for "what we save, saves us".

This poem is desperately thirsty

for a song of hope.

This poem is waiting

for the grandmothers to rise

all over the world.

This is a poem from 2019, written loosely in Hannah Gosselin's Boomerang Metaphor form, which is one of my favourites. It spoke to me this morning. There are many more children dying now. I added in the children of Gaza and Ukraine.  It seems we don't learn that war never "wins" anything.

Tell Us a Story, Grandma

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Grandma lived frugally
in her five room wartime cottage,
which likely cost around $7,000.
Grandpa's Ford Fairlane was listed at $1900
in the 1950's.
Bread cost 12 cents,
a dozen eggs were 60 cents,
(equivalent to $6.40 today,
according to google.)
Beans were three cans for 25 cents.

She re-used everything, from butcher paper
to string, tucked into a top drawer.
She wasted nothing,
having raised five kids
through the Depression.
Minimum wage was 75 cents an hour.
And people lived on that.

When I was nineteen and a working girl,
I brought in five paper bags of groceries
in 1966, that cost 11 dollars.

We lived well on little.

This could be the story
of what capitalism and corporations
- and greed -
have done.

My Grandma told me stories
of family ghosts,
her eyes twinkling.
My eyes are sad.
What stories
can I tell my grandchildren
and great-grandchildren
about this world 
of war, distress and struggle
that we have made?

 

Bamboo Memories

 

I remember
sitting on the porch swing,
listening to the clack of the
bamboo wind chimes
which made me think of Africa.

How we'd sit there,
of an afternoon,
just being,
just loving.
Happiness.

I worked hard for
so many  years,
to keep the wolf from the door -

and then I let him in!
And what joy
was ours,
those fourteen years
that will never be enough.

You were disguised as a wolf-dog.
But I had known you
in other lifetimes,
and your eyes recognized me
the way a human would.

We both wore disguises.
I was a wild spirit
trapped in an aging body.
We limped along together,
towards the end,
me ever aware,
as your footsteps padded beside me 
on those late evening walks,
that one day 
they no more would.

I still pine for you.
I pine.

For Shay's Word List: Shakespeare bats clean up.  

It's Not Just a Walk on the Beach

It's not just a walk on the beach.
It's the beach I longed for
for half my life,
so now I walk it saying
"Thank you, thank you, thank you!"

It's not just an old growth forest.
It's the forest I stood on the road 
to save in 1993,
yet in 2023 the trees are
still coming down
and the climate crisis
is accelerating.

It's not just the harbour,
full of busy little boats.

My eyes caress the curves 
of Wah-nah-juss
every time I see them:
beloved guardians
of the village.

It's not just the village green.
It's where musicfest is held
every summer, everyone dancing
joyously, from white-haired crones 
to little girls twirling
ecstatically
in their pouffy dresses.

It's not just Tofino.
It is the living of my dream,
along the western sea,
waves and forests here
since the beginning of time,
where the wild ones live,
and my spirit is both
at home
and fully free.

For my prompt at What's Going On? : It's Not Just a Cup of Tea - which will be explained better on Wednesday. Smiles.

Small Bird

 

Do you feel it? That sadness, riding along

under the surface, as we go about our days,

smiling, chatting, straightening up things

in the yard that the wind toppled over.

How could we not be feeling it, that

sinking of the heart as we watch the news,

humans suffering the unthinkable horrors of war

- civilians, who arent even waging war, yet

suffering like soldiers.

It feels schizophrenic - two realities existing

side by side - spring coming to life outside

my window, puppies, beach walks,

sitting out front in the sun; and war,

bombing, starvation, limbs blown off,

desperate mothers trying to find food

for starving children.

This is not the best we can do.

And why are they flying to the moon

when earth is in such distress? When 

money is needed to protect the world

from fascism, to combat the climate crisis,

to house the homeless, to care for

the mentally ill.

Do you feel it? That sadness?

I envy the birds, busily making their nests,

busily hopping among the branches,

settling into their new home with satisfied chirps.

The birds, who own only feathers,

are so much happier than we are.

Small Bird, teach me your song.