In dream,
your ghost-self
wandered all forlorn,
your spirit broken,
looking everywhere for me.
I placed my hand
on your head
the way I always did,
spoke gently,
tried to break your
apathy,
your lostness,
uncertain, even,
that I was me.
It broke my heart
to see you
so bereaved and blue,
like you are missing me
as much as I am missing you.
So very touching, Sherry. I feel what you feel...
ReplyDeleteOh, Sherry. This poem makes me feel so bad. I am sure that Pup misses you too, but you will meet again.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you, Sherry. I know how much Pup means to you, still and always. I'm sure some who come to comment are going to think I'm a bit off my trolley, but here's what I think.
ReplyDeleteYou've known all along that Pup is with you. He may leave occasionally to run with the wild things, but he always comes back. I suspect that you have been upset or unhappy lately. And of course, he knows it. And if you are sad, he is sad. Sooo...
Yeah, looney toons for sure.
I must say I have to agree with Pat. Pup will be sensing your own inner whist-full longings and maybe it is upsetting him to see you are so unsettled. I don't think for one unhappy minute he left you, either. He is with you always in your heart and I'm sure he is always close by your side in spirit.
ReplyDeleteSo, maybe you need to ask yourself why you are so unsettled and then he will be happy again too. No, I don't think any of this is silly at all. Love is love, is love, is love. It's different kinds of love, yet all the same and, loss of a loved one is still loss. You must give yourself permission to grieve. To mourn his loss in the same way you would a human because, it is the same.
I agree with all that has been said, only I think we have only one "kind" of love, it is just expressed in different forms. "Love is love, love is love..." and that is all there is. You are sad, sad, sad for this "change." It is right and proper, all things living will die, but that doesn't mean it is less sad. I think any dream, will kindle your sadness, for it is there. It is said, "If you have lost someone you love, you will understand, and if not, you cannot imagine the pain and suffering." The Universe longs to support you. I think you are fine, "its just that this is the grieving process." Love you Sherry
ReplyDeleteThanks, Bren. Annell said something wise this morning, that in the dream Pup was reflecting my grief. That really helped and gave me something to work with. He is a wolf and free so he is likely okay, and perhaps impacted by my grief, since we were so connected. I mostly do okay and know what is, is, but you of course will know better than anyone that there are moments when the grief is still triggered - all part of the process. I do honor it. I have grieved more for him than I did for my parents. Or maybe it is just because now I understand better how to grieve. Thanks for your visit and comments, everyone! I appreciate them more than you can know.
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