How My Garden Grows

 

Roots by Frida Kahlo

If I set a fine table
and offer you
all the bounty of my garden,
will you till the soil,
let it rest,
then restore it to health
for the years to come?

When did we forget
this earth is a garden,
and what we take out,
we need to put back?
Gardens are forever,
yet we live
in a frenzied Now
on a planet
lit by flames
and flooded with despair.

I laid the table well
for you,
but you forgot to care.

for the Sunday Muse. I seem to have a one track mind these days as, where I live, Mother Earth is burning up (along with all the wild creatures), yet crazed people are roaring about on holidays as if there is no tomorrow. At this rate, I worry that there might not be. Sorry to be Debbie Downer, but these are the words that came, I just wrote them down. 

Wolfsong

 

In these days of floods and fire,

hope just may be

a mother wolf and her small cubs

walking along the shore

at dusk.

As darkness settles around them,

they tip back their heads and sing:

sweet baby howls filling our hearts

with tenderness and the possibility

of a better tomorrow.

for earthweal's open link. My friend Chris lives in a floathouse up the inlet. These past few evenings, she has thrilled to the sound of these baby wolf howls, too sweet for words. We have to keep this world alive, for all the small beings, human and non-human, who deserve a future.

On Gardens

My garden taught me

how to nurture things

and watch them grow,

how roots need soft, loose soil

as, inch by inch, I carefully tend

all the seeds I sow.

With Mother Earth's garden,

we have been less than kind.

Now from our disconnected dream,

(and all our barren spirits lack),

we're waking up to find

a nightmare of floods and fire,

too late, too late

to repair the harm

and get our garden back.

for Sarah at earthweal, where we are contemplating LAMMAS, the harvesting of grain and making it into bread. We have not tended Mother Earth's garden well, and are harvesting some painful consequences. Out of this, I do still hope humanity will rise to what is required of us. 

Summer Days

In summer, my whole back yard

was a garden. Early morning, the swish-swish-swish

of the sprinkler, turning round and round,

was a sweet song of nurture,
love in every seed I sowed.

Neighbours hung over the fence and said

"The nature spirits love her.

Look how lush her garden grows!"

The garden fed my hungry children

and healed my broken heart.

   Back then, wise folk warned us

     there were poisons in our food,
pollutants in the land and sea, 

  but we were too bemused
 to comprehend,
   lulled by materialism
      into disconnection
from the earth
 in days we thought
would never end.

      (If you want to feel connected,

       sow a garden. Watch it grow,

       inch by inch and row on row.)

            The garden we planted then,

            when we were full of hope,
     and young,

           we are harvesting now,

         in floods and flames,
            our dreams a nightmare
       just begun.

for Sarah at earthweal, where we are contemplating Lammas, the harvesting of grains and turning them into bread.                                                                            

                         

Lessons the Deer Can Teach Us

 

"The opposite of extraction capitalism
is deep reciprocity."
- Leanne Betasamosake Simpson, 
from As We Have Always Done: Indigenous Freedom
Through Radical Resistance

Once, in the long ago,
the deer disappeared from the north
where the people had been
taking them wastefully, without respect.
The deer refused to participate
in this inequity any longer.
They went elsewhere
and the people grew hungry,
and then awakened.

Today I can see in indigenous eyes
that they too are intentionally withdrawing
and resisting the settler/colonial system
that has been trying to disappear them
for three hundred years.

They oberve us with blank eyes
that turn us into white ghosts.
Their opaque expression says,
"I have removed myself
from your system
of oppression, which extracts
without giving back."

I watch with respect and admiration
their strength and power rising,
hear their true words. 

Like the deer,
they are removing themselves
from the greed-crazed mamalthni,
to follow their own path
on the earth they have tended
for ten thousand years -
the earth it took we settlers
only three hundred
to destroy.

In fact, it feels like Mother Earth herself is removing herself from us in the only way she can, with storms and wildfires and floods. Rampant  capitalism set in place the destructive path that got us here, yet it will not ease its grasp upon the coffers of the world. They will cut down what trees are left after the wildfires until there will not be a bit of cooling or oxygen left on what will then be an uninhabitable planet. It is unfathomable  to me, how crazy this greed is. It is a voracious, all-consuming madness. But now the bill is coming due and who will suffer most are  the marginalized and our non-human relatives. Whales are already swimming farther out to sea in search of food, in waves that are too warm. The screams of animals in the wildfires haunt my dreams. We created of a bountiful garden a hell on earth, yet believe we are the only thinking creatures. I withdraw further into silence, watching the madness unfold.

I Hear Their Screams In My Dreams

 

They say

near the wildfires

they can hear the screams

of the animals

dying most horrible deaths.

How many times

can my heart break

in one lifetime?

Too many times

to count.

It is too terrible to think about, the hell we have created on earth for the beyond-human realm. And yet, as a poet friend said to me today, if we turn away, who will be left to fight for them? 

WHEN I COME BACK II

 

Wild Buffalo at Standing Rock

source

When I come back, I'll be like
the herd of buffalo arriving
at Standing Rock, the natural world
rising up to stand with the water protecters
who are trying to save the river.

Water is life! the warriors said, praying
under a hail of rubber bullets.
They stood in the water in winter
and were not cold, because the river
was with them, against the militarized police
and the black snake that would bring death
to their people.

When I come back, I will be like
the white Spirit Bear, swimming from 
island to island in search of food.
Already, I am growing too weak to swim.
What will still be here, when I come back?

I will come back like the unsettled spirits
at Ninstints in Haida Gwaii. When you step
on shore even now,  you can hear
the keening and wailing of those
in the Spirit World, the First People
who died in distress from smallpox
brought by the colonial invaders,
only the first of their burnt offerings.

When I come back, I will rise
from a small unmarked grave,
where, long ago,  another child
was made to bury me,
under the heartless gaze
of the black robes.
When I come back, may no child
ever have to live under a gaze that cold.

Now I watch the skinny black bear
wandering, hungry, across the village green;
the thin grey wolf, loping along the shore
in search of the salmon that are no more.
I see dead whales on the beach,
stomachs full of plastic and styrofoam.
Raven and Heron and Eagle -
all of their eyes are looking at me
from the tops of trees: asking
what have you done to the world
once so abundant? 

When I come back, if I am human,
I will wear a cloak of shame and guilt.
If I am of the beyond-human realm,
I will be wary, hoping the Two-Leggeds
have either learned how to live with the earth
or have disappeared in the floods and fires,
the pandemics and calamities of our times.

When I come back, will the world
have stopped burning? Or will it
be ash and stagnant water, from which,
eons from now, a small green sprout
may one day hopefully appear?

for earthweal where we are telling it like it is without compromise, in celebration of Ingrid Wilson's new book: The Anthropocene Hymnal featuring poems by some of earthweal's poets. Yay, Ingrid!