Friday, October 15, 2021

Small Sufi Dancers in Our Hearts



It is nearly one year since we were
forced to enter empty time .
The clock slowed; our days
drifted into each other
like floating logs at the edge of the sea,
but more gently, the hours sifting past
like large frigates, turning into days,
into weeks, the rhythm of our days
reduced to cups of tea and the occasional
making of meals, or To Do lists,
easily abandoned when a book
or a movie beckoned, because suddenly,
there was time, even for those of us
who are approaching its end.

We think back to all the small miracles
we rushed through
, not realizing
they were miracles, so soon over:
poetry readings, gathering together, 
taking trips, going to the theatre.
These days, we become more aware
of all the miracles that remain:
sunrise, sunset, cloud formations,
blue sky, the eternal waves breaking
upon the shore, its eternal roar,
and seabirds wheeling free
over shining waters.

Our hearts are so heavy with unshed tears,
yet with gratitude, too, for the joy and pain
of the journey made, the price we paid,
the times that will never come again.

We have slowed our pace, empty time
filling with memory, with the long,
glorious remembering, as we sit
by the window watching the sky change.
Just breathe, and listen.
Listen, and breathe.
The clock tick-tocks; the light
lifts and sifts and turns to dusk.
With quiet hearts, we drift,
we dream, we dream
a cosmic dancer, endlessly twirling,
a small Sufi, swirling,
in the inner chambers
of our hearts.

Inspired by The Cosmic Dancer by John O'Donahue. The italicized lines are his.

Thursday, October 14, 2021

Alive in the Pandemic

 

Tonquin Sunset
by Christine Lowther


In the first year of covid,
our village was safe:
we were careful, compliant,
followed all the rules.
Not one case of covid.

Then they eased the restrictions.
The hordes came, from everywhere,
unmasked, bringing the world's germs.

Now our tiny village hospital
is stretched to the breaking point.
Our friends are getting sick,
some being flown out in planes
to larger centres.

We are more at risk now than
during the first year, when we
were so scared. But now, 
we are tired. We mask,
we wash our hands,
we hope we won't get sick.
But now we know:
at any given moment,
everything in life can change.

I take nothing for granted 
any more.




Tuesday, October 12, 2021

Rising Like the Sun on Easter Morning


The other-world is as near
as closing your eyes.
We sat, that Easter morning,
at dawn, on the slopes
of Knox Mountain,
eyes shut, meditating on peace
for a world galloping off
in the wrong direction.

But the moment of Now
is always exactly right,
when we seek beauty and truth
and our hearts sit gratefully
in our chests.

Eyes wide shut, I lifted
off and up.  Looking down
on a planet blue and green,
I saw beams of light
shooting up - prayers
from other peaceful folk
across the globe.

On the far slopes, somewhere
above and behind, I heard
voices singing, angelic,
ghostly, because,
when we opened our eyes,
none of the others could hear.

A moment of rising,
like the morning sun,
clarity,  sweet and clear,
I open my eyes on a world
transformed and glistening,
that had never felt more dear.


for earthweal where we are contemplating enchantment. It is hard to hold onto enchantment during climate breakdown, yet what is life without beauty? Maybe now more than ever, humanity needs to fall in love with Mother Earth. Because what we love, we take care of. 

Saturday, October 9, 2021

The Language of Clouds

 


Looking at the sky, we long to learn
the language of clouds, of mountaintops.
Mother Sky, teach me
how to sing like small bird, like raven,
like Owl.
Quiet my heart, so I may listen
to the breath of Grandfather Cedar,
and learn to speak tree,
to speak river,
to speak wind.

Transform my soul
to make me worthy of
learning to sing
in whalesong.
Lead me along the shore,
to count the waves,
my heart singing
joyously and forever
the song of Ocean.


An old poem you may have read before, shared with earthweal's open link. 

Collateral Beauty

 


Collateral beauty is...
sitting in a crowd in the rain,
no one leaving, as our indigenous neighbours
tell us how it was for them when they were small,
and invite us to stand with them as allies
working towards a more just world.

Collateral beauty is...
when your heart is troubled,
so you go to the shore, and let
the waves, rolling in and out 
in their eternal song, wash through
your brain, your heart, your being,
till you are as calm as the lull
between waves, as strong as
the sand dollar, that creates its home
from the sand and grit around it,
and carries it within.

Collateral beauty is...
meeting the eyes and smiles
of a people who have suffered much,
who know that you see them.
It is sitting in a crowd of villagers
in orange t-shirts in the rain, on the
Day of Truth and Reconciliation,
and opening our ears and hearts
to hear the pain and truth from which
we do not turn away.

It is seeing all the dark and light of human history
- and herstory - and noting, woven through it,
all the golden strands of beauty put there
by humans delving deep and reaching out, 
and by Mother Earth, effusively painting the sky
for our delight, by learning to truly see
that everything is one. Even us. Even we.


I penned this for my prompt at earthweal: Collateral Beauty.  Defined in the movie of that name as the moments of awe and wonder when we feel our connection to everything.

On Canada's first national day of Truth and Reconciliation, where was our prime minister? NOT attending any event across Canada, not at Kamloops where over 200 unmarked graves of children were found on the grounds of a residential school, where he had been invited to participate. He was on the beach here in Tofino, enjoying family time with his family........eight minutes away from our own march and gathering on the village green to solemnly mark the significance of this day. It was a serious misstep on his part. His words that no relationship was more significant to Canada than that with indigenous people were smooth - he is famous for that - but were revealed as empty - no follow through. His pattern. 

I sat in the rain all that morning on the village green listening to the heartfelt stories of residential school survivors from the Christie school here outside Tofino. It later operated as a healing centre named Kakawis for First Nations families to deal with their pain. I was privileged to work in that place of healing for eight and a half years.

I was outraged by Trudeau's behaviour, on a day that should be spent as respectfully as November 11th. Can you imagine if he went on holiday then? There is no difference. He could have gone on holiday next day - or showed up at our gathering, at the very least.



Monday, October 4, 2021

You, the Seeker, My Lamp, the Moon


 

Little hummer,
irridescent rainbow in constant flight,
you whirred into the room at dusk,
thinking my lamp was the moon.
I swiftly clicked off the light,
to guide you to the window
where you beat frantically for a moment,
then crouched in its corner,
terrified of the giant
whose hands were slowly lowering
to cup you gently.

You stilled, as I carried
your feathered lightness outside
and, when I opened my palms to set you free,
lay for a moment on your back,
surrendered to your fate.
Suddenly recognizing you had survived,
could once more see the sky,
in that same instant,
you were halfway 'cross the meadow.

Just so, do our hearts encounter
their similar terrors,
bring them down to size,
recognize the open door of freedom,
and, each in turn, take flight.


for my prompt at earthweal, where we are contemplating moments of collateral beauty.

Sunday, October 3, 2021

Back Then

 


Back then, when I was
what people call pretty,
I didn't know it, and
never felt "enough",
insecure, checking mirrors
constantly in hopes
of somehow arriving
somewhere where
I would magically be
okay.

I got over that, mid-life.
Make-up gone, mirrors
an after-thought,
what mattered then
was what was
inside my head and heart,
not what was on my face.

Oddly, men stopped coming by
just then. But by that time,
I was just fine
all by myself.

Plus: dogs!


for the Sunday Muse. LOL.