The film is grainy. It is Christmas, 1950, and, one by one, the beloved faces come out the door at 364 Christleton, my Grandma’s house. Smiling into the camera, our grandparents, beaming with their children around them, who have come from afar: my favourite uncle, his wife and daughter; my mom and dad; my mom’s younger sister, with her piquant smile, tip-toeing down the stairs. My younger uncle with his shock of wheat-coloured hair, and his wife, only she left alive, now as curled and frail as an autumn leaf. They were so beautiful, impossibly sophisticated, I thought then, with their then-considered-cool cigarettes, and their laughing chatter. My aunt would take out a cigarette and tap it on the package, my courtly uncle swooping across the room to gallantly light it. “Time to go, Mother Bear?” he’d ask, eyes smiling, as the evening lengthened, and she would smile back, theirs the love story that fed my dreams, until his eyes stopped smiling and held the look of one betrayed.
On our last Christmas with our mother, (though we didn’t know that then), we played this film of her glory years, and she cried and cried, for all those missing faces, all that was gone. And now I am older than she was then, and more faces are missing. But I remember, I remember, the small cottage on Christleton Avenue, when I was young, and all those shining, smiling, beautiful faces, coming out the door, one by one. All but my last frail aunt now gathered Home.
Aunts and uncles smile
Christmases of bygone years
Tears for dear ones gone
for my prompt at What's Going On - Homecoming
On our last Christmas with our mother, (though we didn’t know that then), we played this film of her glory years, and she cried and cried, for all those missing faces, all that was gone. And now I am older than she was then, and more faces are missing. But I remember, I remember, the small cottage on Christleton Avenue, when I was young, and all those shining, smiling, beautiful faces, coming out the door, one by one. All but my last frail aunt now gathered Home.
Aunts and uncles smile
Christmases of bygone years
Tears for dear ones gone
for my prompt at What's Going On - Homecoming
Wow! Only the weight of the years passed can make something like this.
ReplyDeleteMemories get that way. Worth cherishing, and writing down, anyway.
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It is around the big holidays that we remember even more those that have gone...and left such a hole in our lives and hearts. Hugs, Sherry. Hope there is some comfort in the shining memories.
ReplyDeleteWell my dear, this is absolutely beautiful. I think one of your best. Just wonderful !
ReplyDeleteI just read this to my other half and he said to tell you he was swept away by the mood you created.
ReplyDeleteA wonderful snippet of life. Reminds me of a movie scene. I am wondering about the betrayal....that capturedmy imagination!
ReplyDelete"theirs the love story that fed my dreams, until his eyes stopped smiling . . ." So romantic, almost movie romance and in such detail. What a glorious slice of your life. I'm happy that you remember the faces as lively and beautiful. I did a haibun, too. It seems perfect for this memoir reflection.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your kind comments, friends. I am glad this resonated.
ReplyDeleteSuch happy moments are home too. Reliving them is a kind of homecoming. A most beautiful haibun, full of heart.
ReplyDeleteWhat rich and touching images and memories and as always wonderful words - Jae
ReplyDeleteThis touching...heart warming. Love this!
ReplyDeleteThere is so much love wrapped up in this haibun that it glows with it, like a fire to warm one's hands on a cold winter night. Memories like these are that special, and magical. Having never grown up with an extended family, I love seeing through your eyes.
ReplyDeleteCherished memories are golden, but you cry for those that are gone. Beautiful, Sherry.
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