"I feel like an angel,
burning up from the inside,"
my son tells me.
We're in the
oncology ward.
Chemo is
drip
drip
dripping
into his arm.
His hair is wisps now,
across his bald head,
like when he was a baby.
His eyes are still
as blue and true.
"I view reality
with perfect clarity,
but I've become aware
of another dimension.
When I look into a flower,
I see the whole universe.
I can hear the earth
groaning in ecstasy
and, in my body, I can feel,
with my heart of compassion,
myself groaning along with it.
It's a good thing," he smiles -
his unchanging smile.
The chemo
drips
drips
drips
into his arm.
My son is an angel,
burning up from the inside.
for Susan's prompt at Mid Week Motif : Cancer
In 2010, my son had his first round of chemo for lymphoma. We discovered the oncology ward was not a depressing place, but was full of quiet heroes, positive attitudes, and loving smiles, everyone doing what they needed to do to get well.
I am happy to report that my son, one of those heroes, is doing well, five years later. He had a round of radiation this past summer to manage a recurrence. But he remains his sunny, positive self, viewing treatment as a necessary, if annoying, small blip on his radar screen. He has better things to think about: like composing music and writing poetry. He amazes me. Yesterday was his 44th birthday. 44 years of his sunny smile. I have been blessed.
That made me almost hearing the sounds of the drip, drop, drip ...
ReplyDeleteKeep thee well
My eyes tear in rhythm with the chemo. This is a hero poem indeed. Reading it en-lightens me. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteI knew a man who felt God throughout the treatments, felt us holding him in the light, reached a spiritual clarity. That sounds like your son. My friend did well, recovered. Then caught pneumonia and died. He was in his late 70s, though. And he was other-worldly positive and giving to the end.
Beautiful!!!
ReplyDeleteOh, so painfully clear and beautiful at the same time.
ReplyDeleteWishing your son continued good health.
whew....burning inside...I am sorry, cancer has touched several in my family and chemo is hard...love the comparison though..it makes it so tangible...I am glad that he is doing well after....I wish him all the best in recovery...
ReplyDeleteYour son is indeed amazing, a hero! You, and I think, the world, are blessed that he is still among the living.
ReplyDeleteAs a mother, this poem resonates very deeply, Sherry.
ReplyDeleteHmmm! i wonder where he acquired those genes that positive soulful makeup? and good for him that he's continuing his artistic creative channel, the results can only be positive no matter what stage in life we're in.
ReplyDeletegracias for sharing mi amiga
strong poem for a strong son! Blessing!
ReplyDeleteA precious hero Sherry. Im so glad that you have his sunny smile still.
ReplyDeleteYes Cancer warriors are some of the most positive people you can meet. I cant tell you how many I have held as they breathing their last of this world.
Bless you BOTH!
ReplyDeleteALOHA from Honolulu
ComfortSpiral
<3
That drip drip drip is so very powerful...and tender..i can't imagine watching...but i am however pleased your son is doing well..
ReplyDeleteYou are so right about cancer day wards which my wife and I used to haunt many years ago. They were happy places and the staff skilled and compassionate.
ReplyDeleteThe screen in front of me becomes glassy after I finished reading this, twice. But at the same time I was feeling happy, for your son and for all those who are fighting against cancer like heroes. My prayers for them.
ReplyDeleteSuch a moving poem, Sherry-- my thoughts and prayers are with you both. K. Manicddaily
ReplyDeleteHis attitude is wonderful and I wish him well. Bless him.
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful poem, Sherry. It really moved me. He knows how to make the moments count. Like mother, like son. Smiles!
ReplyDeleteMy wish - more and more blessings on you both. Glad you can happily and beautifully write about it.
ReplyDeleteHe certainly is a heo.
The awareness of a new dimension. Cancer has a way of opening the eyes into a new light. I wish him continued healing in his journey. The strength to carry on is a super human drive to live. May the hero compose songs from his heart. He must take after his mother strong willed. Peace and Light my friend.
ReplyDeletewhen i look into a flower i see the whole universe...i love this sherry - and glad that your son is doing good... a friend of mine just went through cancer treatment and there are indeed many heroes in those treatment rooms
ReplyDeleteSuch awareness brought at such a harsh price..Sherry, it seems our children have taught us so much. They are truly beautiful gifts.
ReplyDeleteThis must have been agonizing to write, but I am so glad to hear he is well.
ReplyDeletemy birthday was yesterday, too, Sheri, and I hit 50. it hit back. glad to learn of your son's spirit ~
ReplyDeleteThe burning inside. so tough.. but I am glad of the postscript.. a journey indeed..
ReplyDeleteYou have been blessed with this lovely son. Bet he has made a lot of people happy in his life and that is what really counts. I hope he will remain well and smiling.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Mom. I'm tearing up... <3
ReplyDeleteOh Sherry this is an amazing report and post. Your son sounds like he has his mother's strength and talent. What a lovely legacy you both leave to future generations. I am sure that he is an inspiration to many there at the oncology ward! God bless you both!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear that your son is doing better Sherry. This poem really reveals that story of a fighting young angel. Great tribute!
ReplyDeleteOh, Sherry, this made me cry. I'm so glad he's doing well.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
K
You have been blessed Sherry - and in turn you bless us while sharing your son with us. Thank you for a wonderful read.
ReplyDeleteGreat news! He has fought so hard-this makes me smile and want to cheer for him, for you!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing this wonderful poem-filled with spirit and joy~
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This is a very moving poem, Sherry. I like the subtle way and words you used to touch upon a hard and painful topic.
ReplyDeleteBlessings! xx
ReplyDeleteWhat a loving and lovely tribute to your son! Both of my parents have survived cancer. I hope your son continues to thrive.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written. This is powerful and loving.
ReplyDeleteI can feel the love in the words.
ReplyDeleteI waited to read this .. a quick glance at the first few lines caused my heart to sink. Returning to read it in its entirety made my heart soar!
ReplyDeleteSo very moving.
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