Puss N Boots from Shrek
I know about women and shoes,
but I seem to be missing that gene,
so any poem written by me
on that topic
has to be about not-shoes.
What I wear on my feet:
Crocs, for slipping on easily
to run in and out,
calf-high mud-boots
for heading to the barn
in rainy weather,
a battered pair of running shoes
with clunky laces, that have to be
wide enough for comfort
- rather like a flat-bottomed boat -
which I replace every few years,
give or take, when the soles wear out.
I have a daughter who wears
a fascinating array of footwear,
including combat boots for Kicking Ass,
cool strappy things for dressing up,
anything from platform heels
to fitness shoes, and all that lies between.
She did not get her sense of style
from me.
When we go out, beside her
tall, beautiful elegance,
I feel like the frizzy-haired
Witch Down the Lane,
in my baggy sweatshirt
and scruffy jeans.
Yesterday I met an old hippy
over in Coombs.
Our laughing eyes
recognized each other.
(It must be something about
the Frizzy Hair:) )
He told me
he was in Haight Ashbury
Back in the Day,
that he wore thigh-high
leather boots, with buckles,
in which he promenaded
like Puss 'N Boots himself.
Back in the Day, I wore polyester
and pushed a buggy
with three little kids in it
inside the strait jacket
of a conventional marriage.
I didn't fit,
with my big unwieldy
unconventional spirit,
that kept bumping up against
the edges and confines
I was kept in,
till the madwoman finally
burst out of her prison
and was no longer mad.
In those days, while I pushed my buggy
mile after desperate mile,
I watched, with awe and envy,
the benign, coolly-dressed and
totally FREE-spirited beings
wandering smilingly
up and down Fourth Avenue,
wondering how they learned
to be so free.
I just missed that freedom bus
by fifteen seconds,
pushing my buggy along
a parallel street just one block down.
When I broke free, I remember pushing
my giggling babies in that same buggy,
hippety-hopping down the hill,
all of us laughing,
heading us all
towards a happier life.
I made up for missing the 60's
later, in coffeehouses in the 80's,
and in the Land of
Aging Hippies in Tofino
in the 90's.
My shoes were never magic,
but they lifted me out of the desert,
over the mountains to my new world
in Clayoquot Sound,
and that was magic enough
for me.
My spirit never tried
to stuff itself back
into that little box
again.
The only magic shoes
that ever spoke to me were Dorothy's,
on that journey she made
away from and back to herself,
where she found she had always
had the power inside her,
her home within,
where she had started out.
This lifetime, my shoes
have walked me through
some of the most beautiful
landscapes in the world.
All I ever needed was a pair
that fit, that can carry me
into the wilderness I love.
A pair I kick off at the door
when I come home tired,
slide back into every time
I'm heading out.
How many more pairs
and pathways are there left me?
There's no knowing, but there's one thing
I know for sure: when music
from those years calls to my spirit,
I can still kick them off
and dance a lick or two
across my empty room.