I Hope When It Happens

 

I hope when it happens
I will have finished all the books
I still want to write, will have shared
what I want to share.

I hope my people will read them,
and say, "We thought we knew her,
but there was a large part of her
we didn't know, and didn't understand -
that part of her that other poets knew,
because they read the words from her heart.

I wanted to make something pretty
of my life, but with the ups and downs,
the lumps and bumps, I made
something interesting instead.
I took those things and polished them up,
put them into my poems and books,
left out most of what was black and traumatic
and full of loss. Instead, I remembered
all I was given, how I was helped
and guided, and the people who loved me
till I was better able to love myself.

I hope when it happens,
there will be time to say
all the "I love yous",
look into the eyes of those
I am leaving, say "thank you"
and "Be happy. Laugh lots."

I hope when it happens,
that it will be peaceful,
a soft tide slipping gently
away from the shore.

Inspired by the poem "I Hope When It Happens" by Diane Seuss. The italicized lines are hers. A prompt from Wild Writing with Laurie Wagner.